Frustration.

It's been one of those kinds of weeks.. Exams did not go nearly as well as I would have hoped and I've caught a dreadful flu type cold in the process. With all these negative things happening it's been very easy to get frustrated, but something interesting happened today. As usual when I saw my final mark for my guitar exam I was pretty much ready to just say "I quit!". However, the days that followed I had a few good conversations with my father about why such a thing happened and it really opened my eyes. Although I do enjoy playing in the classical style of guitar I've always been on the fence between a modern method and the classical method. I love playing rock, metal, classic rock, blues and all those kinds of styles as they very much appeal to me and I love the sounds I can get out of my electric guitars, but I've neglected the very style that I plan on studying in university.
Although I've been told I put good work into my studies, I have very much left out myself, my emotion from my playing in that style. As always there are still issues of technique that I must work on, but after much thought I picked up my guitar again and played the same pieces. This time however, I concentrated on putting myself into the piece and although I still made mistakes, the whole performance sounded better! I think although I have a passion for the guitar I've slowly become a bit of a robot over the past five years of study. I now know what I must focus on as well as the obvious things.
With that in mind I will end this post with this. There are still many other frustrations that extend beyond music, but I hope and I pray all will come together with time. I wish anyone who reads this a good week and also to encourage you to think about what you are currently doing in your life and think about how much of you, you're putting into whatever it is you're doing. If you find that you have become a bit of a robot in your ways, take a step back and gauge whether it's just the routine that has caused this or maybe you need to be doing something else with your life.
My favorite track for this post is going to be something completely different from the usual electronic stuff I post.
The piece is by the guitarist Fernando Sor it is titled "Allegretto Op. 47 No. 2" I'm currently learning this piece and I am liking it a lot! The guitarist playing it is Cesar Amaro link is here!